I was in college when Niko entered senior citizen equivalency, the fur on her face turned white but that was all. I thought about what it would be like to lose her and I imagined it heart breaking and tremendous but its worse, it's shattering.
I keep thinking of the times I was mean and yelled to her or when my goodbyes were quick and short and I woke up this morning and thought of all the places she used to be.
The worst part is that it happened all so fast, how she went from active and able to how she was last week was a shock but I honestly thought she'd be around still.
I think try to think of the positives, that she passed at home in the backyard and not euthanized on a metal table at a vet's office. They say dogs and cats wait until everyone comes home to die, and it's true. They do.
"I have sometimes thought of the final cause of dogs having such short lives and I am quite satisfied it is in compassion to the human race; for if we suffer so much in losing a dog after an acquaintance of ten or twelve years, what would it be if they were to live double that time?"
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